“Unless the Lord had given me help, I would soon have dwelt in the silence of death. When I said, “My foot is slipping,” your love, O Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.” —PSALM 94:17–19 Thirty years ago, beginning in 1980, I experienced an emotional illness that led to deep depression and severe anxiety that lasted every day and every night for four years. Without my knowledge, God had enrolled me into what I refer to as my
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